Dangerous prayers…

 

Sometimes I think I’m not doing it right

Not doing enough

When it comes to prayer

So I get out my prayer notebook

The three ring binder of lists and tools

And I pray the lists

But it feels so

Lifeless

I pray that He breathes on those prayers

And gives them resurrection power

So I pray what’s in my heart

I pray for who comes to my mind

I pray Holy Spirit guides me

How to pray

What to pray

Who to pray for

These heart prayers

They are the ones I see visible answers to

Sometimes costly answers

When I prayed that our three little girls

Would not just receive Him as Savior

But serve Him as Lord

And be movers and shakers for His Kingdom

I didn’t know it would mean

One would plant a church in the hardest part of our city

One would be a missionary to Ghana

One would be in ministry at the International House of Prayer

And travel doing kingdom business

And I liked it better when they were all close to Mama

And when I prayed God would do whatever He needed to do

To make us the leaders He wanted us to be

I didn’t know that for ten years

He would test and try everything in our lives

Everything

And we almost didn’t make it

At least that’s what it felt like

But now, we’re in such a better place

Those heart prayers

That come from the deepest place

Without any fancy words

Sometimes no words at all

Just groanings

Those are dangerous prayers

 

Still following,

Elizabeth