I don’t know why He puts up with me
When what I offer Him is such shallow love
Such a distracted heart
I say and sing the words
“I am Yours! I am Yours!”
But He knows the truth
about the other lover
The idol of self with its constant refrain of
“I think…
I feel…
I want…”
I’m ashamed of it
I wear a mask to hide it
I don’t want to admit it
I’m in love with me
Even in prayer
While it sounds right
Underneath it all
I want people and situations and circumstances to be made right
So the apple cart of my comfortable, peaceful life isn’t upset
I’m trying something new
or maybe old
But new to me
Three times a day my phone alarm goes off and I pray
“Help me to love You with all of my heart and mind and soul and strength.”
“Captivate my wandering heart with Your love.”
“Crowd out sin and self with Your Presence.”
“Help me to love others as I love myself.”
Three times a day I admit my helplessness
To even obey in this most basic thing
My inability to do the First Thing
To do the One Thing
To love God the way He deserves
Even in this
Without Him
I can do nothing
But with Him
All things are possible
Still following,
Elizabeth
beautiful...and I love that hymn...one of my favorites...blessings to you as we are bound to Him...
ReplyDeletei am with you on this, and praying the very same thing. thanks, elizabeth.
ReplyDeletethis was a blessing to my heart..thank you
ReplyDelete“Help me to love You with all of my heart and mind and soul and strength.”
ReplyDeleteYou have shared something so simple. But it is so huge.
Bind my wandering heart to You, is a favorite verse. I know I go off on little bunny trails. But He waits for me to come running back. Sometime I hide behind Him and sometimes I jump right into His arms. After reading this I want to stand before Him and hold my arms up for Him to pick me up and hold me. Thank you very much for listening to God and sharing with us. Blessings, Lisa Freeman
Oh, Elizabeth. You continue to inspire me. I want to be like you, acknowledging my helplessness all throughout the day. My need for Him.
ReplyDeleteThanks for the blessing of seeing inside your heart. It's beautiful.
I hear what you're saying...I need to pray about this too.
ReplyDeleteThis touches me in deeply, deeply personal ways. I thank you for this. You're a blessing in my life.
ReplyDeleteThis resonates with me. I want this to be the cry of my heart! Love the new photo in the header!
ReplyDeleteThis is so beautiful and brings the first commandment down to a practical discipline. I need to do this as well, do you mind if I join you? Thank you for coming to our new community. We are better for it!
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